Copycatting, but it's fun.

I was browing blogs today, and came across this list of things, and you are supposed to highlight what you've done on the list. I found it interesting, so here it is.

Highlight the ones you've done...

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink

02. Swam with wild dolphins

03. Climbed a mountain

04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive

05. Been inside the Great Pyramid

06. Held a tarantula

07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone

08. Said 'I love you' and meant it

09. Hugged a tree

10. Bungee jumped

11. Visited Paris

12. Watched a lightning storm at sea

13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise

14. Seen the Northern Lights

15. Gone to a huge sports game

16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa

17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables

18. Touched an iceberg

19. Slept under the stars

20. Changed a baby's diaper

21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon

22. Watched a meteor shower

23. Gotten drunk on champagne

24. Given more than you can afford to charity

25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope

26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment

27. Had a food fight

28. Bet on a winning horse

29. Asked out a stranger

30. Had a snowball fight

31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can

32. Held a lamb

33. Seen a total eclipse

34. Ridden a roller coaster

35. Hit a home run

36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking

37. Adopted an accent for an entire day

38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment

39. Had two hard drives for your computer

40. Visited all 50 states

41. Taken care of someone who was shit faced

42. Had amazing friends

43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country

44. Watched wild whales

45. Stolen a sign

46. Backpacked in Europe

47. Taken a road-trip

48. Gone rock climbing

49. Midnight walk on the beach

50. Gone sky diving

51. Visited Ireland

52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love

53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them

54. Visited Japan

55. Milked a cow

56. Alphabetized your CDs

57. Pretended to be a superhero

58. Sung karaoke

59. Lounged around in bed all day

60. Posed nude in front of strangers

61. Gone scuba diving

62. Kissed in the rain

63. Played in the mud

64. Played in the rain

65. Gone to a drive-in theater

66. Visited the Great Wall of China

67. Started a business

68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken

69. Toured ancient sites

70. Taken a martial arts class

71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight

72. Gotten married

73. Been in a movie

74. Crashed a party

75. Gotten divorced

76. Gone without food for 5 days

77. Made cookies from scratch

78. Won first prize in a costume contest

79. Ridden a gondola in Venice

80. Gotten a tattoo

81. Rafted the Snake River

82. Been on television news programs as an "expert"

83. Got flowers for no reason

84. Performed on stage

85. Been to Las Vegas

86. Recorded music

87. Eaten shark

88. Had a one-night stand

89. Gone to Thailand

90. Bought a house

91. Been in a combat zone

92. Buried one/both of your parents

93. Been on a cruise ship

94. Spoken more than one language fluently

95. Performed in Rocky Horror

96. Raised children

97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour

98. Created and named your own constellation of stars

99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country

100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over

101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge

102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking

103. Had plastic surgery

104. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived

105. Wrote articles for a large publication

106. Lost over 100 pounds

107. Held someone while they were having a flashback

108. Piloted an airplane

109. Petted a stingray

110. Broken someone's heart

111. Helped an animal give birth

112. Won money on a T.V. game show

113. Broken a bone

114. Gone on an African photo safari

115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced

116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol

117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild

118. Ridden a horse

119. Had major surgery

120. Had a snake as a pet

121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon

122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours

123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states

124. Visited all 7 continents

125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days

126. Eaten kangaroo meat

127. Eaten sushi

128. Had your picture in the newspaper

129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about

130. Gone back to school

131. Parasailed

132. Petted a cockroach

133. Eaten fried green tomatoes

134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey

135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read

136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating

137. Skipped all your school reunions

138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language

139. Been elected to public office

140. Written your own computer language

141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream

142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care

143. Built your own PC from parts

144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you

145. Had a booth at a street fair

146: Dyed your hair

147: Been a DJ

148: Shaved your head

149: Caused a car accident

150: Saved someone's lifeI really thought I had done more things on this list. Hmmm...Now it's your turn! Leave a comment and let me know that you did this!

They are out there

There are times when I feel that life tends to be too much for it's own good. The infinite variables that you encounter and live with are just overwhelming at times, and I feel like I am wondering about this world deaf, blind, and dumb at times. I know I probably shelter myself too much, but it's an easy thing to do when you live in a rut with a certain comfort zone, where you know if you stick steadily to it, all will be safe. I know that's no way to live, I just need to break out and start taking chances. There are so many opportunities for love and happiness that tempt a person like me to break away from that safe little place, yet I just let them slide by. For instance, EVERYONE has a person they see around during everyday life that they are attracted to, and there is always a mutual smile, but for some reason you don't ever talk to them, and then when it's too late you always wonder "what if". Maybe that's just life tempting you, prompting you to take a course of action, like there's a bet on it out there to wait and see what you do, if you go for it or not. And who knows, if you do, you may have found "the one" then again, maybe not. Those are the times when I am walking in my rut with my head down, deaf, blind and dumb. Those are the times when I could just kick myself in the nuts. I feel like I have passed up too many of these "opportunities" that fate presents and now I am just stuck where I am with no room to move because the "rut of safety" has gotten so tight. But then again, I'm the type that doesn't think there is just "one" out there for me, given the billions of people that inhabit the Earth at any given moment, there just has to be more than one. And I know it's never too late, but how do you break the sense of safety and start climbing out of that rut when you have been in so long? This is the point in my rant where someone slaps me in the face and tells me to stop being such a coward and that it's about time to take life by the horn, I just wish it were that easy.

I guess that's that for now at least, that's my state of mind on things, an internal battle of whether to stay on first where it's safe, or to take a chance and see if I can steel second.

Everywhere but here.

I feel the world around me buzzing constantly. The excitement of new things, people, opportunities are in the air. Yet I feel like a prisoner in my domain, not allowed to partake in all of the excitement on the other side. It is as if the gears churning in my mind slowed, ceased to turn, not allowing me to find my path that will lead me to a new, more meaningful life. Everything around me blurs in hues of gray, blending together, only what is right in front of me, what is monotonous, what is bland is what is clear to me. I need for the sun to shine my way once more and melt the bars holding me hostage, to put life and imagination back into my stagnant state of mind, and to clear my eyes so I can begin to notice all that is around me. Only when this happens I feel I will have the tools necisary to get back on that path and find myself, find the life I was meant to lead.

Have I finally found a place in this digal wonderland?

This will be a place where I can let my mind run wild without suffering the wrath of those I know personally in the solid world. No judgments from those that I see everyday, a place where I can say what I want without them skewing and twisting the words all around to alter their meanings.
This is also a place for me to exhibit the private written word for the voyeurists out there in this digital place, as well as a place for me to look into the lives of others as they spill their guts out onto the screen.
I have always been a voyeur in the sense that I like to know peoples secrets, just for the sake of me knowing a person better than I lead on to, or better than they think I do... I should have been a spy.
So, here I am to rant, rave, and unload my mind unconditionally to you all, and to look into the lives of others, so take it for what it's worth.